Thursday, 13 December 2018

Grief Stricken

Dear Readers,

Sorry I’ve been quiet lately. 

It's suppose to be a time of looking forward to Christmas and festive cheer but, sadly it’s a time of grief for my family. Not only is it the anniversary of my father's death, but we’ve also had to come to terms with the sudden loss of my eldest brother.

My Mum and I have been in Spain for the past few days, so we can walk round the village he used to live and attend his funeral.

Siblings with their Dad

It was good to return to the place where we have many fond memories with him and also where we know he loved waking up to everyday.

Steve was a very happy guy and always up for a laugh. He moved out to Spain with his partner for a better life over a decade ago and he was very happy there.

His sudden death has been a real shock for all who knew him. He will be sorely missed, but in this time of grief we will remember the good times we have had with him.

Despite the devastating reason for our time out in Spain, my Mum and I stayed at a super hotel on top of the mountains with amazing views and it was lovely to just chill out and think about life whilst staying in a remote area of Spain. We hired a car and for the first time ever I drove on the other side of the road... very daunting!! And also spending a few days with my Mum is always wonderful.

The life of families never run smoothly, but the three of us will always be siblings. I will always be grateful to have had Steve as one of my big brothers in my life, and even though I don’t see my other brother, JP often, we know we love each other and are only only a phone call away.

As I mentioned, it has also been 4 years to this day in which our Dad passed away. It never gets easier, but I will never stop talking about him and keeping his memory alive. Steve is reunited with our Dad and I’m sure they will both look down on their family and keep a watchful eye on us as we continue through our lives.

With all the shock and grief, it's obviously taking it's toll on my health and it's all been very stressful. I'm not doing too well at the moment, but I'm sure with lots of rest and taking it day by day, I'll start to feel myself again to hopefully be okay to enjoy christmas, as best as I can.

Rest in Peace together now, Steve and Dad. Until we meet again.

Thank you for reading!

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